Your A** Did Not Wake Up In A Bugatti

So I have always felt this certain kind of way about the quality of Rap music and how it relates to the people who listen to it. It has been rubbing me the wrong way and pissing me the fuk off!I went to a bar last night and I was just peeping the seen and you know how the DJ plays those certain songs that gets the crowd hype and everybody sings along. I noticed that the two songs that had the crowd the most hype were called Bugatti and All my ni^^as look rich as fuk. Now my issue is I can't relate to these songs and most of the people singing them can't either. Your a** did not wake up in a Bugatti let alone a new one.Half of these people didn't even know what a Bugatti was until this song. If you and your ni**as were rich as fuk you wouldn't be in this club. Why do my people like these songs that are not about them or for them. Oh wait this music is as a matter of fact. This is the kind of music that makes young kids feel like they have to have the most expensive possessions to be respected or on something and it also does the same thing for some adults.This music is meant to control our youth socially. Then that's when the "get it by any means" starts coming into play and we have drug dealers, purse snatchers,and crimes of fraud. Now I'm not blaming the things people do solely on rap lyrics and visibility but it does factor into some peoples actions. When you are young most of the time you don't understand that these artist that are making this music are just putting on a show. All they see is the glitz and glam and wanting to be rich and actually to ride in a Bugatti. It pisses me the fuk off.com that the music I love the most has lost its substance for the most part over time. Now I'm not saying that I don't listen to some of the "ratchet" stuff myself. Get your life! All music doesn't have to be serious but why does most of the music we listen to glorify things that my people don't have , can't afford, and most of us will never see because of the strategic ways to keep us from having them. It's like someone taking ish from you and using your brother or sister to rub the ish in your face!#PissedtheFukOff

Fathers Day Disgust

Okay so I didn't post this yesterday because I wanted to let the Fathers have their day. So of course Fathers day makes me really think about the epidemic of fatherless children in my communities.Notice I used the word epidemic which means a rapid spread or increase in the occurrence of something and that something is fatherless children. It pisses me the fuk off that I even have to deal with issues like this or that it even is an issue at all. My father was not in my life and now I am struggling and saddened by the fact that my daughters father is not in her life. Why is this cycle continuing to happen? I mean I know how it started, which is during slavery, as much as people want to deny it or ignore the facts, slavery had such a tremendous lasting affect on my people.So here is how, during slavery marriage and family was not respected by slave owners for their slaves. They wanted the males to act as studs (a number of horses, usually for racing or hunting, bred or kept by one owner,a male animal, as a bull or ram, kept for breeding.) If he was strong and a good worker they wanted to breed him like a dog or horse and wanted him to impregnate different women in order to breed future strong and good working slaves. Slave owners also disrespected marriage and family by raping women slaves, forcing them to have sex with men other than their husbands and separating their families by selling them off to other slave owners. Now some may say "Well slavery was over a hundred years ago what does this have to do with today?" Its just like what I was explaining to one of my friends a few days ago, it is hard for people to live a way that they are not use to or do things that they are not use to doing or have not been shown to do properly. How can a boy grow to be a good man and father if he doesn't have one around to show him the way? How can a girl choose a good man to be with and father of her future children if she doesn't have any positive examples. Now I'm not saying this is the only factor in this decision, but it is one of the biggest factors I think so. I know their are men and women who defeat these odds and end up not repeating the cycle but the number still doesn't add up to the number of my people that haven't. This pisses me the fuk off, when do we as a people decide that we want better for ourselves and our children and men decide to try being good boyfriends,husbands,brothers, uncles and fathers collectively. This epidemic has got to end.com. Then I was taken a bit back by some of the post on Facebook about Moms not being fathers and they shouldn't get to celebrate Mothers day and Fathers day and people posting things like a woman can't be a father because she is not a man and we don't want to hear from the bitter baby mamas. When will we wake up! People there should not be a such thing as a single mom,baby mama or single dad or baby daddy. There is obviously a reason it takes two people to create another. Credit should be given where it is due. If you are doing a dual job, you should be given that credit. Ejaculating sperm into a woman does not make you a father in any way even the dictionary does not define Father that way, it defines it as a man who exercises paternal care over other persons; paternal protector or provider: to perform the tasks or duties of a male parent;. So if a woman is performing the task of a father; that a man has left her no choice but to, then she deserves credit for that, for taking up her responsibilities and his. I am tired of people trying to undermine the role of a single mom and acting like it is not a hard thing and no big deal. People need to get their life pleaseeeee! I can only think of a few women who have planned to raise a child by their self. People really need to focus on the real issue and that is why aren't we staying together and raising our children together or even just co parenting cooperatively. People want to constantly lay all the blame on a woman when a child comes into play and then want to criticize her if she decides she doesn't want that responsibility and chooses to abort, while men walk away everyday and leave all responsibility on her. This is out of order and further more it is mind bottling to me that statistics show that there were more black families sticking together and fighting to be a family during slavery then it is today. How in the hell were our ancestors risking death and getting their arse whipped to be together and we don't have to deal with any of this and we can't come together and do what needs to be done for our children.#pissedthefukoff By the way Happy Fathers day to the men who actually live up to that role and the women who have to play it! Thank y'all!!

Ish Just Got Real for the Single Mom

So my thoughts are flowing heavy as I write this post. I am pissed the fuk off at the situation of having to be a single mom with a fuked up father(sperm donor)for my child. Now I know lots of people will say you should have kept your legs closed or you knew who you were having a child by but we as people have to stop assuming and criticizing. When I got pregnant at 19 i didn't know much about sex but doing it and really didn't know much about that I was just full of hormones and not full of preventative methods or critical thinking skills it's like they say I was young dumb and full of cum and my bf took advantage of that. My mom told me if I got pregnant in her house she would kick me out and never discussed boys or what to do when I got grown and did decide to have sex to prevent the situation I am in now. That was our sex talk and later on I found out she didn't know how to talk to m e about it because no one talked about it with her and she was so scared of me ending up in a situation like I am now she didn't know what to do but use fear which as you can see only works for so long and most of my peers say they received the same talk from their parents. So while I can't be too mad at my mom for not knowing how to talk to me about sex it still pisses me the fuk off because it probably would have made a big difference if she did, but oh well I guess that's in the past now but back to the issue at hand. So anyone that knows me knows that I love my child to death. I do whatever is in my will and legal to provide for her and keep her happy and all I get from her father is 200 a month in child support, no phone calls for her, no Christmas gifts for her, She is lucky if he calls her on her birthday. Yes I am putting him on blast because I am tired of men and people thinking raising a child is a piece of cake ,especially when you are young and don't have a proper support system. Now I don't talk bad about him to my daughter because she is young, happy and resilient and I'm not going to play villain when she gets older she will see for herself. I say all of this to say ladies and men please examine people really hard before you have children by them and no matter how caught up in lust, love or whatever you may call it realize what can come behind it because people will always tell you what you should do and what they will do but when it comes down to it you can not trust man. Now my Bf was suppose to step up and keep his child for the summer and at last minute he backed out which left me in a situation because I told my babysitter it was her last day and my living situation was changing and so was my work hours. Then his sister stepped in saying she would do it after I cried and complained about how everyone told me to have a baby and not an abortion and said they would help when needed and if they couldn't help then I would just let them have custody of her since that seems to be the only way they will do whats needed for her. So upon this agreement she told me she needed the $200 in child support I get for my child and I told her fine. So remember I said my living situation was changing, well I had to move and I had calculated that into the money I needed to move before we had spoken about her keeping my daughter. I tried to delay moving until I got paid again but I was forced and had to overdraft my account so when the money came the bank took it. So I told her aunt to give me to the next payday and then I would send it next thing I know she is putting my child out telling me I need to come get her if I don't have the money. Now I feel this is ridiculous this is same person that just told me that she was worried about what was best for the child and it wasn't a big deal that she had five kids one more would not hurt. Personally I feel they shouldn't even be asking me for that money because my daughter is seven years old and I can count on one hand the ish they and her father do for her or have done and while I realize it is not his sisters responsibility or his mothers to do for our child I can't help but feel resentment towards them. Well not necessarily his sister but his mother because when I was pregnant she and my bf's father told me not to get an abortion and that they would help with whatever was needed for my daughter. His father gave me this horror story how someone would stick a clamp up my vagina and I could die and at 19 I believed this I had never carried a pregnancy before and like I said I was ill informed. I just feel like when you know your family member is not the best you should stay out of things and not vouch to pick up the slack if your not going to or don't mean it. I feel that her father lives that way and anything our daughter needed for the summer or they felt like she needed for the summer they should have called him. I still have to maintain a place for my daughter when she comes home so was I suppose to end up homeless and give money to them to take my daughter to the zoo and out for luxuries and then when she comes home she doesn't have ish. I don't think so.com People do what they want to do at their convenience is the lesson I have learned and that it's real and trill out here for a single mom, the economy has not gotten back where it needs to be , its becoming harder and harder to finish school and having to schedule your life meaning work and school around another person is not easy. Ish just got realllll....... I am so sad to say in our generation it's Mama Babies and Daddy maybe. #pissedthefukoff

Minumum Wage is Going UP

So the Senate just passed Senate bill 1565 on Wednesday, which would raise the minimum wage to $10.00 an hour. So we are suppose to be happy about this right?! In a sense I am but I already make $10.00 an hour and I still can't afford ish. So I don't see minimum wage as the key issue when it comes to affordable living or living comfortable. My opinion is that the cost of living is the real problem and it pisses me the fuk off that people don't realize this or either they do and just don't care. So even though I'm glad there is going to be a minimum wage hike, I can't help but feel doomed because there is also going to be a cost of living hike two years later. This system is a never ending cycle to keep the rich rich and the poor poor. Pricing of necessary items should be based on how much people make and that's after taxes;because we all know that even though on paper you will be making $10.00 an hour, you will really be bringing home $9.50 an hour. Companies constantly charge us consumers quadruple the price it takes them to make a product and be able to reap benefits. I'm pissed the fuk off people keep getting over on me and I work hard to pay someone for something I need that only cost them $1.50 to make. Another issue also is that pay is never equal to labor. I watch people bust there buts everyday and make nothing and then I see people who don't do anything complicated at all and make double what these people make. How is that fair and I realize that mind labor is worth more than physical labor in this world but then education is high as hell making it nearly impossible for people to groom and use those skills. We as people need to push for better options for us as consumers. The cost of living needs to be equal to the minimum wage, meaning I can afford to buy everything I need, and it is of quality, I shouldn't have to buy non quality ish because I can't afford quality. The government has to get their ish together.#pissedthefukoff

Chivalry The sum of the ideal qualifications of a knight, including courtesy, generosity, valor, and dexterity in arms.

What the Hell happened to it?! I know I am a feminist and I fight for equality of women but that doesn't mean that I don't want to be shown any chivalry. For goodness sakes I don't hate men, I just want to be able to have the same pay if I'm doing the same job and have control over my body as they do.Back to the subject though. So I was chillin with my friend and we were looking to chill with some dudes. You know a kick back session or whatever you may call it. So I call this guy and asked if him and one of his friends wanted to hang with me and my friend. He was at work and said he would hit me when he got off and I said OK. So about two hours later he text me and asked me what I was on. I told him I was on my way home. He replied I WAS TRYING TO SEE IF Y'ALL WANTED TO MATCH A BOTTLE(LIQUOR). When I saw this text all I could do was laugh but I was pissed the fuk off that he had the audacity to ask me that. When did guys start asking you to match the bottle?!#Getyourlifepleassssse! So I replied and told him that gentlemen don't ask ladies to match the bottle and that we were not his guys. He told me he knew plenty of females that had no problem with it and this pissed me the fuk off far more. This is the problem right here. I'm sorry ladies but that is not wassup. You should never feel okay with matching the bottle with dudes that want to be involved with you romantically. It's nice that you can afford your own and can do for yourself and you should be able to but a true gent knows you can but doesn't want you to because he is willing and can and this goes for more than just that bottle of liquor. Back to convo though after I told him I was a lady and demanded to be treated like one he told me that this was not the 70's and I needed to get my head out my ass and I was living in a fairy world. He was being a total douche bag. So I told him that it doesn't have to be the 70's for me to be treated like a lady and that I see he has a problem with the way I carry myself so goodbye. Is this really how guys think when you demand respect but when you don't then your a hoe, easy, slut, and don't have any respect for yourself. WTF I'm so over it! If you can't show me some chivalry then I don't want to be bothered with you. I'm not going to allow you to treat me any lessor than I would treat myself. If I would buy a whole bottle for myself you should do the same. I know some of you may be reading this and saying it's just a bottle of liquor, this is a small thing. See that's where it starts, when you give people an inch most of the time they take a mile; and people will only treat you the way you allow them to. So dudes don't be asking me to match a damn thing cause it's not going down.#PissedtheFukOff

I am Human

I am always striving towards a better world and peaceful situations but that doesn't mean that some things on this earth don't make me angry or piss me the fuk off. If they didn't I wouldn't be as proactive as I am or working towards change. I would just be complacent with the way things are. So because I am not, I have decided to use my voice as the first step and I hope that my blog will stir the pot and get people thinking and ready to become proactive people as well. I will be discussing everyday real life issues personal,professional,political whatever is pissing me off at the moment. So I hope as readers of this blog you will find a real connection with me through my words and I look forward to your feedback and hearing what pisses you the fuk off also.